March 2011
Maybe everyone else is right…
That I shouldn’t be waiting anymore.
That I shouldn’t have been the one to tell you that you have to do something about it to make everything better..
That I shouldn’t be the one telling you, you should have known to do it on your own..
Tell me why is it that in the beginning we promised we’d be friends if we broke up, that now...
February 2011
Should I get some sleep?
Well I think I should..
Another week of school to go through . Same old, same old school, I just don’t know who to turn to now that its just me and you…whatever happened to being close to everyone else xP
10 more days .
Plus 1 more term;
*had a fun weekend, did all my homework (I hope its good enough),
*most of my family members are sick apparently there’s some kind of virus going around, still seeing my mom yell at my brother, my essay I’m afraid won’t be good enough for history, nothing, and I mean NOTHING ! Has changed relationship wis
Stressing out on Baniaga’s quiz tomorrow, still gotta read two more chapters xp ! And the important ones too…
I just want to break down and cry…ugh !
Why are you so different from me?
How could you let yourself get kicked out of everything?
Why couldn’t you just quit the lies , why won’t you listen to her, to me !?
I hate seeing her like this because I’ve hurt her once does she have to go through another troubled child..
I can hear my mom yelling and lecturing in the room just across from mines,
I see the lightning shining right through my windows,
I feel the pain for my bff, at the same time I’m still in pain from problems of my own..
I can see how I’ve drifted from people I used to be sooo close to.
I’m proud that I’ve worked hard to be a straight A student,
I’m dissappointed...
Yeah, guys can be such jerks,
I can’t believe you had to hear the REAL reasonyou two parted..
Admit it. You’re waiting for something you know...
Killing someone with kindness .
The best way I get someone to spill things out to me.
-Today I’ve decided if nothing NEW happens, since I’ve given your possessions back, including a letter filled with my profound kindness; then I’ll know for sure you’re really tired of it, of me.
I have three years ahead of me ;)
But I can only depend on myself now, even though I have...
In The Beginning..
lisavu-:
tedeezy:
In the beginning, you thought I was amazing, you thought I was something different. But, nowadays, it’s like,
I’ve gotten less attractive to you.
I don’t have your attention like I used to.
You’ve run out of things to say to me.
I’ve gotten boring to you.
I’m not as interesting to you as I used to be.
You’ve gotten used to everything I do.
Your feelings just aren’t the...
FOUND IT !
I found the audio of to kill a mockingbird ! ahah! yaay !
Today was a good day,
Obena: did a great skit presentation ;) so proud of it !
Natividad: Presented my poster, and barely did much in class, chill day in this period.
Lunch: I realized I really lost connection with a lot of people, but it was fun hanging around with Jun and walking around talking story.
Davis: Part one of assessment completed; parts 2 and 3 to be continued..
Baniaga:...
Just finished webcammin’ with jo;
I wish I could’ve stayed on lonnger but sadly I couldnt ..
Just listening to music now..
When girls cry; i say it happens all the time
When guys cry; i say he must really be truly in love
today went better than i thought it would ;)
-accomplished a lot today…
English Exam & presentation: got an A for both HOORAAY! i’m doing well in that class .
Catching up: caught up with Jo today, and it was nice to have a talk with her.
Laughing: Arlene so made my day after school, talking bout the gross part of movies xD and drank some starbucks; someone got her addicted ! *she blames Angie.
Smiles: Smiled more...
my mom’s being so nice,
its like she already knows…
life seems so hard, what happen to us being the children you raised us to be ;(
its hard having to hear you yell and see you suffer from the pain we’re putting you through.
Now I only have one motivation, one inspiration, one sense of support. And I hope you know who you are.
Cuz I need you more than ever .
Help me…
How can you seem so calm? So happy? Like nothing ever happened?
I’ve been asked this a couple times everytime they see me knowing something really bad happened. Knowing that I’m going through something.
All I tell them is “I know I WILL be fine”
I hate when I feel weak, inferior to anyone, so I show them that I’m fine. But take a closer look into my heart, my...
we’re through, for sure.
I’m not ready to move forward in this relationship, call me immature, call me stupid !
I don’t care because I know I’m not ready, if you’re not okay with that then my final goodbye was last night.
My mom may not know we’re through yet, but I’ll tell her eventually; when I know tears will no longer fall from my eyes.
...
I really don’t know how I’m going to tell my mom that we’re through…
She still thinks that I still have a boyfriend,
And I flinch as she mentions the word ‘boyfriend’ cuz I just wanna cry and tell her that I no longer have one….
Must read. :(
Boy: I miss you.
Girl: And so?
Boy: I really did.
Girl: K.
Boy: I'm sorry.
Girl: What for?
Boy: For ignoring your efforts to communicate with me.
Girl: Its OK. I got used to it, then I got tired, so I stopped trying and started forgetting.
Boy: I..
Boy: I...tried to forget about you, you see.
Girl: ....
Boy: Cause it tore me apart that we can never be...
Girl: its OK.
Boy: Why is it so OK?
Girl: I got used to days hoping you'd be back, but then you never did. I started facing reality, and started to get a move on.
Boy: Wait...am I too late?
Girl: Too late for what?
Boy: To court you?
Girl: You know, I've always wanted to hear that from you. Back then, a year ago. But...I got used to only wishing for it..then realized it would never happen, so I stopped hoping.
Boy: I'm really sorry, but don't worry, this time, I will make your wishes come true.
Girl: Its my turn to say sorry. Time got into me. You've broken my heart already. I cant risk experiencing that again. :/ Thank you anyway. For communicating with me after a year of silence.
CANCELLED-
myspace account
formspring account
throwing it all away because with it i’ll miss you more.
This time...
you didn’t fight back; and it hurts </3
‘cause i still love you..
Those days when you're not talking to someone who...
itsjasminediaz:
Like there’s something missing in your life…
Been like this for the past couple of days…
I don't like fighting with you.
alohakristelynx3:
ayoitskiddaprille:
chamellejoooy:
thatgirlkcv:
bee-tee-nuh:
cindyxlove:
Every time we do it’s just all bad. We’re always exchanging horrible words to each other. But you know that everything I say, is usually out of anger. I hate seeing that side of you, and I don’t like you seeing that side of me. It amazes me how you haven’t left even though we fight constantly....
I know..
preciousfate:
I should just walk away and forget about all we ever had. But I can’t, because I know this time you won’t come after me. And I guess that’s what hurts the most.
I'm fine..
Thats all I can really say,
</3 040210. I guess it’s time to say goodbye.
“What’s up with you two?”
You wanna know what’s. UP !
- the sky.
Sometimes when people ask me what going on, isn’t it enough for me to just say I don’t know…
Cuz inside I really don’t know.
I’m fine I know I am.
Everything that’s happening is just making me work harder…
I know what it feels like to be weak, and I’m tired of that already .
I need a best friend right now !
Why’d you have to turn out to be such a jerk?
You were never like that before..
The best birthday was back in 7th grade .
I remember getting balloons from my closest friends,
Receiving hugs and happy birthday greetings,
After school there were surprises, I would find myself all covered in icing ;)
Old lady yelling at us to stop screaming..
Whatever happened to the balloons, the hugs, the creaming??
After my seventh grade year all people care about now is Vlentines day...
